Pick Myself Up

I've been hurting nobody knows I guess I'm fine but that's how it goes I drink too much till I feel okay drink too much just to numb the pain everyday it's like a never-ending battle I try my best but I'm feeling suicidal I don't want to carry this anymore I'm too broken and I'm so sore I don't want to be here in my mind drinking tonight cuz it makes me feel fine if I close my eyes will it break me this time I don't want to hurt anymore I don't want to lay here on the floor I don't want to cry my eyes are sore I want to be okay can you pick me off the floor yeah I don't want to be here in my head distant memories make me feel like I'm dead give me a reason why I should stay please help me God I can't carry this pain wake up in the morning wake up in the night every single day is like a never-ending fight just know I'm trying I'm trying my best to  pick myself up when I'm feeling depressed